Something monumental happened today...
Wait for it.
I cooked dinner. And it was yummy. And I didn't have to ask my husband for directions at all. I did it - all by myself. This was HUGE for me, because I think I have cooked 3 times since the death of my mom. Since my mom passed, I haven't felt like doing anything. Literally. I would come home from teaching and sit on the couch. No tv, no book. Just sat.
Today I made a decision. I was leaving my bathroom, thinking about how much I miss her and it hit me. Up until the addiction (to prescription meds, she had been on disability for about 15 years) she was a very tough and strong woman. It just hit me - I needed to stop being a waste and start toughening up. Yes I am in pain, but that doesn't mean my life stops.
So, making a good dinner was monumental for me. 1. I made something yummy without help and 2. I took a step in the right direction, especially since I also did 3 loads of laundry that I actually put away.
Yay me. :)
